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Aku senang saat TUHAN mengunjungiku. Mengalir dalam darahku, berdetak cepat dalam jantungku, dan bergetar dalam jiwaku. Ia menggerakkan tubuhku, membuatku merasa ringan melayang.

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Hari-hariku memang bertambah baik. Mimpi-mimpiku, yang dulu membuatku sedih karena terlihat terlalu jauh, sekarang mulai terpenuhi satu per satu. Dan aku mulai kehabisan mimpi.

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Waktu itu, aku pergi hanya dengan satu tujuan : mencari Tuhan. Dan aku memang menemukanNya. Aku pergi dengan tangan kosong, dan pulang membawa damai yang dititipkan Tuhanku. Tapi bukan untuk sementara--untuk selamanya.

When I Got It All

So... here I am. Finally sitting peacefully,
watching my life getting better and better, day by day.

Penulisku sudah mengatur semuanya.
Mungkin aku sudah melewati waktu-waktu yang sulit, di mana setiap halamannya dipenuhi dengan gambaran situasi yang menegangkan dan kata-kata sifat yang menjatuhkan perasaan. Sekarang aku sudah masuk ke halaman-halaman akhir, di mana semuanya terasa benar, hari-hari semakin cerah, dan matahari bersinar lebih terang. :)

Thank you, My Lord, yang sudah menyelesaikan masalah-masalah di halaman-halaman pertengahan itu. Untuk memberiku rangkaian kejadian tak terduga yang mengubah hidupku, mungkin selamanya. Pengalaman patah hatiku, teman-teman baru, keluarga yang (awalnya) tidak kusukai, kegiatan-kegiatan, seminar dan retret, buku dan novel, semua yang Kau sediakan untuk kucicipi satu per satu, yang ternyata membawaku sampai di sini.

Aku ada di akhir halaman, tapi ini bukan akhir hidupku. Seperti cerita di novel-novel, ini baru awal dari semuanya. Judul buku yang lain mungkin menanti di depan sana.

Somebody That I Used to Know

now and then i think of when we were together 
like when you said you felt so happy you could die 
told myself that you were right for me 
but felt so lonely in your company 
but that was love and it's an ache i still remember 

you can get addicted to a certain kind of sadness 
like resignation to the end, always the end 
so when we found that we could not make sense 
well you said that we would still be friends 
but i'll admit that i was glad it was over 

but you didn't have to cut me off 
make out like it never happened and that we were nothing 
and i don't even need your love 
but you treat me like a stranger and that feels so rough 
no you didn't have to stoop so low 
have your friends collect your records and then change your number 
i guess that i don't need that though 
now you're just somebody that i used to know 

now you're just somebody that i used to know 
now you're just somebody that i used to know 

Hellow. Time to post something a little bit... personal, maybe? Hehe. 

It's a song. And those lyrics are SUPER related... to me. I'm glad. At least, I'm not the only one who feels it. A million people like this song, too. Maybe they feel related too?

Yeah, Boy. You didn't have to cut me off. I don't even need your love (anymore), but you treat me like a STRANGER and that feels so ROUGH. I admit it : I was glad it was over. I am..


Nah. Now let me say something for addition : thank you for anything. I'm not mad since we communicate again that time. A million thank you for your time, your effort, anything. Those time was precious, I won't forget those. I always thank Lord for giving me that chance. Thank you.